Christians, I'm so worthless and filthy, I'm disgusting and I don't deserve Gods love? I am so saddened?

I am so angry at myself. I pray 3-4 times everyday to Jesus Christ and ask for forgiveness of all my sins. I also help and love others and am easy to forgive, I never hold grudges but masturbation is a habit that I struggle with. I've made so many promises to Jesus Christ that I would stop, but I always end up failing my heavenly father by masturbating and commiting lust. I seriously hate myself and I feel like Jesus doesn't care about me anymore, how could he save a wretch like me? figure hell is what I deserve.